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Tuesday, March 9, 2010
A fresh start.
Past post are saved as drafts.
Okay, my mind's so blank now. Gonna take some time to think of what to type for this post. Something's pulling me back from posting about my abortion. But to prevent people from asking about my things and stuffs. Read my blog kays?
Right, did an abortion on the 6th march after much consideration. Decided to let this little precious out because she's without kidney. Nobody know why this happens. Waiting for the report to be out and i guess i'll know why on the 26th march which is hubbys birthday. Will go collect with hubby. =)
I gave birth to my little precious because she's 22th weeks and the doctor says it's dangerous to suck out. Was admitted on the 5th march. Doctors starts to insert pills into my vagina every 4 hours in order to let my cervix open so that i can let her out. Normally for first time abortion, i'll have to take 2 course which is 10 pills. But after my 4th pill on 6th march morning 7am plus, the doctor checked me and says i can give birth as my cervix is big enough to let her out. So at 8am they ask me to start pushing at my ward/bed. The pain was so unbearable. Took loads of pain killers and injection. Finally, decided to do a big push with the help of hubby's hand. Did a urber big/hard bite on his hand and pushed out little precious. Little precious came out and all of my pain went off. Was so relived! Rested and waited for the nurse to clean me up.
The nurse re-confirmed with me if i wanna see little precious, i said no. And my heart hurts so much. Hubby rejected seeing little precious toos. But i know he did somehow saw abit. Was told that i'm able to discharge at 5.30pm. Was super happy! Mum came down at 1pm plus. Cooked me confinement food, no appetite but did ate abit. Rested and the doctor came to tell me my body was very strong. She said my body takes in medicine fast and reacts fast. And she told me my little precious is very beautiful. Hold back my tears and thank god. It wasn't easy to accept and did all these.
I'll always remember i gave birth to this precious and i'll always mark 6th march on my celendar. I don't blame god for taking her away, i know it's all fated. I know god will take good care of her and she'll be good. Although i do misses her at times, i know she'll always be in my heart.
Doing confinement now at granny's house. No snacks, maggie mee, ice water, alcohol, bath and outing for me for 1 month!! Under the care of granny and my mum, i'm sure i'll recover fast. I'll just have to bear with the hot-ness and the no junk food life. It's a good chance to slim down yea? Lost 7kg after abortion. I wanna slim down and plan for another baby soon.
Hubby have been bugging me for another baby. He says he wants us to have another baby by july. Is it too fast? To me is fine, we're able to raise the baby and i really do love kids loads. I hope god hears my prays and give me another cute and heathy child.
*Hubby, i'm sorry, i broke down again. I promise to be strong. Let's work hard against ur goal. I'm sure we'll be able to make it. For the sake of our future and ur 30th birthday wish. Let's jiayou !!!! I love you loads. Although i won't be able to sleep beside u now everyday, but seeing u come see me after work everydays contents me.
凯羚
♥♥义发
10:09 AM
