A new chance

2011-03-25T14:04:00.002+08:00

EVERYTHING'S GOING WELL

*Grumpy Face*

HeLLOS peoples~ Back for a short post. Baby Kayson is 2 weeks & 2 days old already. Time flies. Having baby boy by my side time seems to pass faster. Am always busy on him. Just can't take my eyes off him.

Baby Kayson is tube & needles free! YAY! Doc have removed all tubes from him & his wounds are recovering well. Thanks god. Everything is going well & smooth. Will be planning Baby Kayson's full month celebration with parents this sat & sun. Most likely to be hold on 2nd April Saturday afternoon 4pm at granny's place located at cck. There'll be buffet, red eggs & ang kueh. Hope everything will turns out well.

Am still on confinement. 15 days pass. Will be bathing with herbal water today & gonna wash my smelly & oily hair at jean yip tomorrow afternoon. It's hubby's birthday tomorrow, gonna give him a surprise present. Hope he likes it. Mummy will be helping me look after Baby Kayson for a few hours while me & hubby go out for a short date.

Alrights. That's all for today's post. Will be back soon. Stay tune for BB's full month post.

2011-03-15T12:32:00.002+08:00

MY SUNSHINE

Woke up with a great news. Baby Kayson is taking in more & more of my expressed breast milk everyday. Nurses & doctors increased them. This news cheers me up before i got up from bed. Hubby & mil will be going down to see baby kayson today. Sad thing that i can't go down but nvm. I'll ask hubby to snap pictures of him for me to see. I'll be visiting him on friday & will be doing his birth cert on friday toos. Time please fly faster so that days will pass faster & baby kayson will recover faster & he can be discharged faster. Hahahhass. I just can't wait for him to be by my side. Gonna cuddle him tight. Gonna plant him many many kisses. Gonna stare at him sleep. Gonna see him grow everyday. Time heals everything yea?

2011-03-14T14:27:00.002+08:00

SOME THOUGHTS

This gonna be a naggy + boring post. Just some thoughts i had this few days.

Went to visit Baby Kayson twice yesterday. Once in the afternoon with Jasceline ah yi, Cecelia ah yi, Mummy & Eunice. When we reached, Baby Kayson was on phototherapy because his jaundice level is high. Was told that he'll be fine soon. Seeing him under the light with his eyes covered aches my heart. Left very soon cause mummy says i can't stay out for long as i'm still doing confinement. Was super reluctant to leave but no choice. Back to granny's & daddy says night time he'll be going to visit Baby Kayson with granny. Told daddy i wanna go down with them & daddy came to pick me & granny at 7pm plus. Reached the ward & Baby Kayson was crying badly. My heart sank to the bottom when i hear his cries. He keeps crying & struggling around when his pacifier drops & he even scratches his face. There's a cut on his face. =(

Told the nurse to let him wear a mittens incase of more scratches. Dad wanted to leave after not long. Guess he's also heartbroken to see Baby Kayson like that. Dad sent us home. On the way home was super moodless. Reached home, had a chat with hubby & broke down. I told hubby i don't feel like a mother. Cause after i gave birth to Baby Kayson till now, i haven't carried him yet. And he looks like he's suffering. Will he blame me in the future for giving birth to him like that? Am i the one who caused him to be suffering?

Hubby hugged me tight telling me everything will be alright but i know he's also tearing. Haiish. Let's just hope Baby Kayson will be fine & discharge real soon. I will jiayous in expressing milk for him every 3hourly & hubby will jiayous in working hard earning money to support us.

Woke up this morning by mummy's call asking about Baby Kayson's situation. But i didn't receive any calls from kkh. Decided to call up the ward & good news i received. Although he's still on phototherapy, but he started taking in my expressed breast milk at 9am and they'll feed him 4ml every hourly. Hope everything goes well. Pray hard.

Alrights. That's all for today's post. Today's the 4th day of my confinement. Still doing good with hubby by my side & granny's care. Really appreciate everything that granny's doing for me. She's really good. Love her so much.

Ohh yahh...
Thanks Teacher Audrey(Mummy's ex colleague) for the hamper gift.
Thanks Ichiban(Mummy's work place) for the hamper gift.
Thanks Ah Yan Aunty(Mummy's colleague) for the ang bao.
Thanks Jessie ah yi for the ang bao.
Thanks Jasceline ah yi for the ang bao & biscuits.
Thanks Cecelia ah yi for the ang bao & biscuits.
Thanks xiao yi po for the ang bao.
Thanks 3rd gu gong for the ang bao.

Thanks people for all ur care & concerns. Greatly appreciated. =D

2011-03-11T08:08:00.003+08:00

BABY KAYSON'S BIRTH STORY & DISCHARGE

Hellos peoples~ JkaiLing's back with a new life. This gonna be a long & wordy post. So.. get prepared. Will be updating Baby Kayson's birth story & reasons why he isn't home with me now. =D

Alright. This is how it goes. When i was about 6 months pregnant, the doctor did a detail scan for me & found out that baby kayson's stomach has got 2 bubbles. This 2 bubbles are his stomach & his intestine. They're bloated & there's a narrow part in between. My heart sank to the bottom when i heard this & the first question that came out from my mouth was 'Can my baby survive?' My gynae confirmed & assured me that my baby can survive but gonna go through a minor operation. I seated back & thanked god. Caused for some of u might know my first baby girl didn't make it through & if really~~(touch wood)~~ baby kayson also can't make it, i don't know wad am i going to do. I definitely can't take it & sure to break down seriously.

So during my next few months of pregnancy after knowing this problem changed totally. I took loads of calcium & nutrients. Drinking 1litre of low fat milk every single day & taking in fruits after meals. My weight went up to more than 70kg but i didn't care much cause wad i wan is a healthy baby. I know i'm gonna have difficulties in losing weight after birth but that doesn't really concerns me other than baby kayson.

I always dream about giving birth on march though my edd is on 2nd april. So i washed up baby kayson's stuff during mid feb & it takes me 2 weeks to finish preparing his stuffs & bring all to my granny's place as i'll be doing confinement there. On 7th march midnight about 1am, when me & hubby was about to turn in, i had sharp pain & bad cramps on my left side of stomach & my stomach was feeling very very bloated. Called up KKH & asked if i should go down & consult, the nurse advised me to go down immediately incase i've dilated. So hubs & myself changed & cabbed down. On the way down, was thinking, am i really going to give birth on 8th march?(三八妇女节) cause i keep telling my relatives i got a feeling baby kayson will come out on this day.(Fyi, since young my predictions are quite accurate).

Reached kkh, was being pushed up to labour ward. Did admission & doctor came to check me. Was 3 cm dilated. Doctor decided to call up & gynae & was put on drip & ctg strip to see if there's any contractions. Till morning 8am, my gynae came & checked me & told me i'm still only 3cm dilated. Decided to let me rest in normal ward & she'll decided whether to burst my waterbag & let me proceed with labour cause baby kayson is still in 36 weeks 3 days only. It's still consider premature.

At about 1pm, my gynae came & told me she decided to burst my waterbag on 9th march 12am & let me go on with labour because baby kayson is weighing 2.7kg & it's oks for me to give birth to him. Rested & nurse came to pump some watery thingy into my buttocks & let me clear my stomach. Cleared my bowels & pushed down to the labour ward at 1am. Gynae came & burst my waterbag & started to have contractions. Contractions come & go till 3am 6cm dilated i gave in to epidural. Epidural is really my saviour. It saved my life! Was full 10cm dilated at 5am & started pushing with the help of hubs & nurses. Hubs & nurses was very couraging. Gynae came in at 5.05am & at 5.23am baby kayson is out! Didn't feel any pain when my gynae cut & stitch me all thanks to epidural. CooL much my gynae did a great job & i was feeling very numb all over my body. Rested for 3 hours & was pushed back to normal ward for recovery.

I'm glad that i'm able to walk down of bed myself at about 11am. Only feel pain in my buttocks due to epidural. Relatives & families came to visit me & granny cooked me confinement food. Glad that my appetite was good. Managed to eat quite alot. Mum & hubs left at 8plus. Slept throughout the night with the help of chicken essence. Hubs & mil came at 7plus in the morning on the 10th & brought me breakfast. Ate & nurse came to teach me about breastfeeding. Was discharged on 10th march 11pm. Cabbed to granny's place with hubs & mil. And now under the care of granny's for the next 40 days with great & good food. =D

BABY KAYSONAlrights. I was discharged alone because as i mentioned on top that baby kayson needa go for operation after birth. Doctor initially said that they'll be doing the operation for him after 2 days of birth, but after baby kayson is out on the 9th, the specialist doctor told us that baby is looking good & fine & is able to proceed with operation after scans are done. Agreed in forwarding the days of operation & the operation was a success! He's now in Children's ICU under observation in recovery. Doctors told me they've taken away the breathing tube & he is breathing well himself. He'll be transfered to High Depensive Ward soon & if nothing goes wrong, he'll be transfer to normal ward & days after he can be discharged.

I thank god for giving me this gift though he isn't prefect. Nobody's perfect right? I took the courage to blog his problem out as i feel that there's nothing to hide about. This is my life & i gonna accept it. I've started expressing out my breastmilk for him. I wanna give him the best. I'll give him what i can cause he's my flesh & blood. He's our precious. God will bless him & he'll be a healthy & happy kid like any other kids.

Alright! A very naggy post huhh? That's all. Will be back for more updates when baby kayson is home with me alright? Will promise to post up more of his pictures. So.. Stay tune!

OMG!

2011-03-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

ohh myy! my gynae gonna burst my water bag tonight at 12am & i'll be going into labour. hopefully baby will comes out in the morning 9th march. pray hard.

Random

2011-03-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

Blogging with my phone cause i can't get to sleep eventhough i didn't sleep at all last night. SHAG!
Currently in my 35weeks. i hope baby boy will comes out when he's ready & not let us wait so long. Can't wait to carry him in my arms & plant him many many kisses. Gonna see my gynae in the 8th & i wonder have i dilated. LOL.

2011-01-06T01:15:00.003+08:00

PICTURES + SHORT UPDATES

3 Jan. My 20th Birthday!
Hubby brought me to town & treated me like a princess the whole day! <3
Finally had my favourite yoshinoya!
Back home for shark fin soup cooked by mummy.
Cut the mixed fruits cake from crystal jade.
YUMMY!

*I'll never get enough of this.
I SWEAR!

MY LOVES!

*Ang bao from Mummy.
*Earrings from bro & sis.

*Shark fin soup.
YUMMY

27 Dec. Dad's 50th Birthday!
Mummy cooked steamboat for dinner & i brought Angie The choice Mango Ice-Cream cake. Yummy!

*Ang bao from Mummy
*Shirt from bro, sis & mys

Will be back for more updates. Next post will be about USS & chalets! Stay tune! <3

2010-12-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

FAVOURITE MONTH ~ DECEMBER

YAY! Mid dec is coming. That means, events are all lining up. HAPPY HAPPY~
Good foods are on the way toos.
Friday is the start of all events. Gonna have good food cooked by xiao yi on friday night. Then 4am plus, gonna head to granny's place as the morning ceremony will start at 5am. Then night for the dinner. Finally a time for me to doll up.

Me & hubby's 1st year wedding anniversary is reaching soon toos. 16 Jan. Hubby will be bringing me & my family out for dinner. Should we go blk 216 or the restaurant where our wedding held? Will be celebrating my birthday & our anniversary together.

That's all for today's update. Currently waiting for hubby to be back from work as he worked OT today. YAY! His pay is coming in in 2 days time. K byes!

2010-12-10T02:16:00.002+08:00

SHORT UPDATE

Alrights. Didn't intend to update, but since i'm waiting for 'breakout epi 4' to load, shall update abit. November finally ends!(I know i'm slow) I love december onwards. Cause there'll be never ending events coming up. WOOHS! I like i like.

Time please fly faster. I can't wait mans!
18 Dec - Leslie kor's birthday + My dearest aunt's wedding!
(Gonna doll up, eat many many good foods, enjoy dinner with big big families)
22 Dec - Yunjie's birthday.
24 Dec - Cousins & Relatives from KL are coming out to visit us!
(Though my stomach will be big & i can't bring them out far to enjoy, but glad to see them. Miss them much!)
27 Dec - Dad's birthday.
28 Dec - Bro's birthday.
31 Dec - Countdown! Welcoming the new year.
(2010 wasn't a really great year afterall.)

3 Jan - My 20th BIRTHDAY!
(Wondering where hubby will be bringing me to?)
7 to 9 Jan - Will be celebrating my 20th & Pinghui's 18th birthday at downtown east chalet!
(Though it's a belated one, but i hope i'll enjoy. I miss bbq-ing)

3 Feb - CNY!
(Though i needa give ang baos, but i still love CNY. Can eat like never ending 'ba guas')

End of march - Gonna welcome my baby boy! Awaiting for his arrival.

I can't wait for all this events to be up!

Next, super many task to be done by each month.

DECEMBER
- Buy bro's, dad's, yunjie's, pinghui's & leslie's birthday present.

JANUARY
- Buy BabyBoy's sarong.
- Buy CNY clothing.
- Prepare Ang Baos for CNY.

FEBRUARY
- Bring BabyBoy's stuff to Granny's place.

MARCH
- Wash up all BabyBoy's clothing.
- Wash up all sarong cloth.
- Pack hospital bag.
- Everything to be at granny's place.(Cause i'll be doing confinement there.)

Alrights. That's all. Naggy post i know. Will be back soon with pictures.

2010-11-29T01:16:00.004+08:00

SHOPPING DATES & WATCHES

HELLOS HELLOS. I'm back here for a short update. Time check 1.42am. Ooops. Promised hubby to turn in by 1.30am but i'm still on this lappy. Nevermind, the most get some naggings from him later on. Haha.

SUNDAY 28 NOv
Woke up at 10am by that old bitch's shouting(Fyi, she's hubby's aunt & everyone dislikes her & she don't stay with us. She's just here to pack & so call kaypo our stuffs.) Got super irritated as i didn't sleep well the previous night due to BabyBoy's kick. Laze on bed with hubby till 1pm & off he went to buy our brunch. Ate and took a nap till 5.30pm. Walked over to fetch BabyBiyun & cabbed over to granny's place. Relatives are back from taiwan! Received a hello kitty pouch from Yunjie to put tissue & a hello kitty watch from god-ma. Loves them ttm! Hello kitty <3

*This is the hello kitty watch i'm refering to. From god-ma. <3

*Can finally say bye bye to this watch also from godma brought from taiwan few years back.

*Wondering should i get this watch from DKNY.
Comments pls.

SATURDAY 27 Nov
Woke up at 4pm together with hubby cus we slept at 6am on friday night. Loves the time with hubby. Bath & prepared & bused to JP for shopping. Brought dress for aunt's wedding & also hubby's top. Now left with shoe & earrings. Had long john as dinner before heading back to mummy's place. Chatted with parents, bro & sis & cabbed home at 1am with hubby.

*Stocked up choc. YUMMY!

&&& i'm missing this cute little girl already although i just sent her home at 9.30pm just now. Never mind, gonna fetch her out again on tuesday.

Okkiess. That's all for today's update. Will be back soon. BabyBoy is currently 22 weeks(5months plus). My little rabbit in my tummy loves kicking me especially in the nights. Mommy & Daddy loves u BabyBoy!

2010-11-18T17:57:00.002+08:00

IPHONE + BABY BOY

Oooppss. I think i went mia too long. Hahass. Not busy with anything but lazy to update. Went KKH on 9th nov and scanned baby's gender. IT'S A BOY! Rang up dad first and he was super happy. Followed by mum, mil, granny, god-ma and others. Hubby and myself thanks god that BabyBoy is a healthy baby. Naughty boy toos cause he keeps moving and turning before gynae could snap parts of his body. BabyBoy is currently 5 months growing in me. Happily swimming and kicking me. Loves his soft little kicks.

YEA! Hubby's getting me iphone 4 tonight or sat night! It's my advanced christmas present from hubby.

That's all for today's update. Will update more often with pictures using my new iphone 4 when i gets it.

2010-11-03T15:06:00.002+08:00

IT'S JUST NOT ME TODAY!

Woke up at 11am with a fucked up mood. Had a tiff with hubby and got super fed up. FUCK! Nothing seems to make me smile today. NOTHING! Had my lunch and my mood is still super fucked up. I don't understand why do i have to accept all these shits from you. I didn't owe u anything and i don't control your life. You control your own life. Keep having negative thoughts and tears rolled down like tap. Wanted to stop and cool down, but everything seems so hard and difficult. Time don't seems to tick today. Everything somehow paused today in my mind. I broke down. Totally! And i can't find the reasons of my breaking down. I want today to end so badly. It's not my day today. I know i can't call u back to my side now cause i'll ruin your job. I'll stay by myself cooling down slowly. I don't know what to type anymore. Eyes staring in the screen and vision turning blur. I blinked and it's clear again. Sunlight coming shinning in and out of the window. Felt so tired but couldn't get myself to sleep. Everybody's and everything's so busy and i'm sitting here doing nothing everyday. So many things running through my head. You, you, you you and you. Husband, families and friends. All their words hitted me so hard. Some stayed in there hurting me everytime i think of it. I always tell myself to treat the way people treat me. Don't treat them too well and getting hurt in the end. Well, i guess it's not going to work. ARGHS! WHATEVER! LET IT BE.

*People, ignore this post. Yea! I'm crazy.. I hope i don't get depression again.

I'll treat u the way u treat me. If u find the sudden big change in me treating you, then you're the one that isn't treating me well. Don't show me your stupid attitude as and when u like. I don't owe you anything. Not happy then fuck off. I won't care about your irritating face or what-so-like attitude anymore. You've reached the limit of my patience!

i guess, this is a part of pregnancy.

2010-10-08T07:02:00.003+08:00

LONG UPDATE

HELLOOSS! Back to update. Time checked 7.18am. Not yet asleep. Playing 'Wish to Wish(Oboe & French) on the lappy while blogging. So many things running through my minds now. Sad and happy memories. Ohh noo, it's like gonna make me tear anytime soon. AWWWW~

Right! Went mum's childcare to helpout on the 30th of Sep. They're celebrating Children's Day + Mini Sports Day. I was helping out as a photographer that day. Well, i did a great job. =D Enjoyed myself really loads with those cuties there. Was asking myself if i should really take Early childhood as my upgrading course? Those kids are such a darling. They always make me smile without fail. Kids are kids~

I'm in 14 weeks and 6 days today. Tomorrow i'll be in my 15th weeks. That's fast yea? Time flies. But, still, vomits at least once a day. Even i take only a meal a day, it'll still comes out some. I guess i''m used to it already. LOL.

Hmmm, let me think... like nothing to update already lehhs.

Well, Hubby's MC ends today. As well as his *not supposed to work job*. I hopes he gets his pay real soon. Gonna save up those money and buys stuffs for lil precious after knowing the gender on 9th Nov. Excited~ Hubby gonna go NUH later at 2.30pm for his follow up and he just slept at 7am just now CAUSE he's such a sweetie to accompany me watch 'Holland V at 4am just now and we had mac as breakfast. He's deep in his lala land beside me now and no matter how hard i tried, i still couldn't fall asleep. Shagg~ I guess i gonna finish watching 公主嫁到 then sleep.

WOOHHSS! It's friday today! Will be heading to aunt's place for stayover tomorrow with hubby, sissy & biyun*goddaughter!! Mad excited~ I hope she'll sleeps well there and so there won't be additional dark rings on hubby, sissy and my face. Hiakhiak~

Alrights. Guess that's all for today's update. Kind of long post uh. Will be back soon. Stay tune.

2010-09-18T03:39:00.003+08:00

LAPPY'S DOWN. =(

Will be back to update soon. Lappy currently down. No pics to upload.

BBng is turning 12 weeks (3rd month) tmr. Hope everything is fine for him/her.

Daddy and Mummy loves u BBng!

2010-09-10T19:32:00.002+08:00

INSOMNIA

Short update for today. Didn't sleep at all last night. Insomnia. Had mac supper at 2am plus but vomited everything out after awhile. Keep going to the toilet for urine and couldn't get to sleep. Had heart to heart talk with hubby and teared badly. Finally fall asleep at 9am with the help of hubby massaging my leg for me. Mwarks to hubby. Woke up at 3pm plus and was shocked by the time. Didn't know i could actually slept soundly despite the noise coming from outside. Hubby went to buy lunch for me and sis but couldn't eat much. Vomited out again after awhile. Wasn't feeling good. Keep applying axe oil. Just had dinner brought by hubby. Shared chicken chop and hokkien mee with sis. Bloated! Hope the food i consume will digest well.

oks. That's all for today's update. Boring plus short post.

Might be going jp tmr with sissy, hubby and babybiyun. Had very bad craving for taiwan shilin lunch box. Parents will be back from genting tmr. =D

2010-09-09T18:51:00.002+08:00

UPDATES

Very sorry readers for mia-ing so long in my blog. Very very lazy to update. LOL.
Life is still the same for me. Reaching 3 months which is 12 weeks soon and i'm glad i'm feeling much better than before. I can now knock out for more than 12hours and my sleeping times seems to be normal. Happy! Hope things will get better.

Will be staying at my mummy's place from today till sunday. Cus mummy & daddy went genting with relatives. Missed it due to pregnancy. Shall join them in the future with baby. =)

Alrights, that's all for today's updates. Will be back to update soon.

2010-08-17T01:04:00.002+08:00

BE BACK SOON

Will be back to update soon. Kind of lazy and busy. Part of the reasons are laziness. Have been vomiting like almost everyday. This pregnancy makes me so so sick. Stomach like bloated for 24 hours everyday. Don't like the feeling. So sucky.

Will do a long post soon yea. I'm currently 6 weeks reaching 7 weeks preggy.

I pray for this baby to be healthy and normal.

2010-08-03T23:14:00.003+08:00

NEW BLOGSKIN + GOOD NEWS

Finally a change of blogskin. Thanks to bro for his help. Love my new blogskin ttm !

Good news for u guys. I'm pregnant again !!!!!!!!! 4 weeks and going on.

This is how it goes. I missed my menses for 4 days since 28th july. I never miss my menses before. Is either my menses comes on actual day or always earlier. Hubby says maybe it's due to stress and might be delay for a few days. So waited till 31st july at about 2am in the night, had some cramps in my stomach. Thought menses is coming, but no, the pain is still there. Decided to ask hubby buy tester back to test cause recently my appetite have been very good plus i'm always very tired. Tested on the 1st tester, showed 2 lines. The pregnant line was very light and the not pregnant line was very dark. And so i assume i wasn't pregnant. After awhile, checked again and the results was same. Suspect that i was pregnant cause last time when i checked, it wasn't like that. So hubby went over to 7eleven to buy clear blue tester, checked and both lines was so clear. At that time, hubby and myself was superb happy. Hubby happily run to mil and showed her the tester. Mil was happy tooss. Was asked to take good care of myself. At about 4am, the cramp in my stomach was still there. Decided to cab down to KKH to double check if i'm really pregnant and how big the baby is. Registered and did blood test. Was asked to go home and wait for the 2hours blood test. KKH nurse called at 6.30am and was told that i'm pregnant and it's normal !! Happy ttm and went into lalaland~.

2010-07-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

I WANNA CHANGE BLOGSKIN.

2010-07-19T00:08:00.004+08:00

SUNSHINE AFTER RAINS

*Tsk. I look so fat in this picture.*

Been a week since i update my blog. Rotting soon.

For this past one week, nothing much actually. Have been at home waiting for hubby to knock off after work. Slept throughout the day with only a meal a day. Hahahss.

The only thing is that, hubby injured his right middle finger while working on the 14th Wednesday. Received his call at 5pm plus. Went to have dinner with relatives at 'Hokkien Kong Hui' and went down NUH to see hubby. Mother-in-law and hubby's brother was there when i reached. We wasn't allowed to see him cause he was having his drip and observing in a room. We waited till 11pm and he came out. His finger was damn gross. Blood can't stop flowing. He told us that gonna wait for an hour for the specialist to come attend to him. We waited and waited for freaking 3 hours then the specialist came down. Attended to hubby and he says he needa have an operation done today as his nerves broke off and was seen in an x-ray.

Was worried for him. He went in the theatre at 2am and they started his operation at 3am plus. Mother-in-law and me waited for him all the way till he came out at 5am. Was cold and tired in the waiting lounge. Luckily there's channel 8 old shows to keep us entertained. Hubby went to the resting ward and had his breakfast and was discharged at 6am. Cabbed to bangkit with hubby and mother-in-law to have breakfast, homed and K.O straight till 12pm.

Was superb tired. Didn't want to wake up, but no choice as i've got an interview at 2.30pm at Tiong Bahru Plaza. Had lunch after interview and walked around to buy Erina's late birthday present. Mrt-ed to granny's house after buying and stayed till 9pm to meet up XueTing*Mei to have a short chat-up. Cabbed home and straight K.O again.

Woke up at 12pm again as hubby needa go back NUH for his check up and cleaning the area of his finger. His boss came down and paid all his medical fees. Dragged till 6pm and cabbed to Taka to find bro. Walked around Chanel, Lv and finally decided to get a gucci wallet. Hubby promised to buy it for me. LOVES ! Now got wallet and next is belt. Aiming for a gucci belt next month. Hahahsss.

Hubby's on 21 days leave. But lucky his boss is paying him his daily pay for this 21 days. Arbo sure GG. LOL. Had a big quarrel with hubby last night and had cold war till now. Though it gets better, but i still find his words hurting. Hope we'll be fine soon.

That's all. Nights peoples.

*The picture of his injured finger* *The 3rd picture is where the specialist operate.* *The last picture is how the specialist join back his nerves by using a green metal thingy*
~GROSS RIGHT?

*His blood can't stop flowing*

2010-07-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

BACK TO SQUARE ONE

Gonna updates for the past few days.

Friday 9 july
Hubby took mc today cause he didn't sleep well due to a sudden tiff at 4am last night. =(

Saturday 10 july
Woke up at 5pm and went over to fetch biyun*god-daughter. She's staying overnight with me! Mad happy! Brought her over to mummy's place and went out for dinner at Keat Hong 252 for dinner. Had my all time favourite Salad prawns. Nice and yummy dinner. Went back home to play with baby biyun and went over mac to have supper with sis and erina. Treated them but i didnt ate. Left after awhile and cabbed over hanwei's place.

Sunday 11 july
Didn't sleep well at all cause biyun*god-daughter was at my house. She stayover with me and hubby. Brought her to hanwei house for mahjong. She started crying after the first round. Stopped playing and brought her back to hubby's place. Coaxed her sleep at 12am and she woke up at 5am. Played with her till 6am and coaxed her back to bed and she slept till 9am and wakes up for milk. Fed her and slept till 12pm when she gives me and hubby a soft slaps on our face. Hahahss. Adorable isn't she? Woke up, bathed her and brought her over to 211 granny's place. Everyone loves her. Had dinner and send her back with the help of parents and sis. I went for mahjong session at hanwei's place again till 1am plus. No luck on that day. Mood spoilt. Sudden have the urge to watch World Cup's last match. Holland VS Spain. Watched full match with hubby till 5am and lala land~

Monday 12 july
Force myself to wake up at 6.45pm cause i dun wanna miss 'Your hand in mine. Woke up, washed up, on tv and ate the duck noodles hubby brought before he leaves work at 2pm. Ate and have been slacking infront of this lappy till now. Hubby's on his way back from work. Gonna ask him buy cigarette. Nicotine level low. Stupid him took the 2nd last stick when he goes work and i'm only left with the pathetic 1 stick. Took it after my meal and no more. Shag ! Hubby fast come back. I need cigarette !!!!!!!!!!!

Will be back to update sooooonnnnnn.
I hope the woman's clinic will contact me soon for an interview.

2010-07-06T00:30:00.002+08:00

BORING MONDAY

Nothing much today. Slept at 4am plus last night and woke up at going 7pm due to mummy's call. She's abit 'boliaos'. Called me and ask what am i doing then i told her sleeping larhs, then she said wahhss, good life uh, oks bye bye. LOL.

Woke up after hanging her call cus i dun wanna miss the 7pm show 'your hand in mine' on channel 8 and also due to nicotine level low. Hahass. But after i wash up, on the tv, open window and curtain, i forgot i wanna smoke lerhs. STM!

Skipped jogging session cus hubby was on ot. And so i was lazy to go out buy lunch and i slept through without having any food in my stomach. Hubby came back at about 8pm and went out to buy dinner. Ate and watched tv and slacked till now. YEA! Only took one meal today. Happy me, but sadly to say, i vomitted out some sour liquid after meal. EEkkss !

Boring! Have been watching 'Smiling Pasta' like again on youtube. Hahahs. I still can laugh loudly at Cyndi's actions man !! Wonder wad time will i fall asleep tonight. Oks. That's all. Gonna continue watching and i guess after i finish this show i gonna try watching '谈情说案' recommended by Tracy biao mei.

Nights peoplesss.

2010-07-04T21:34:00.003+08:00

DIET

Diet starts tmr. Gonna start jogging tmr with the company of hubby's.
Cutting down on supper and fast food. Ohh my !
But i haven't been eating on mac like a month's or 2 month's ago man!!(No excuse jkailing!!)

Short updates on this few days.

Friday. 02 july
Stayed home whole day napping with super nice weather. Had light dinner and no supper.
Straight to bed after hubby came home.

Saturday. 03 july
Woke up at 1pm plus. Hubby went to buy lunch and went back mummy's place. Went for facial at timah with mummy. Packed dinner back for hubby, daddy, sis and erina after facial.

Sunday. 04 july
Brought biyun*god-daughter out to mum's side granny's place. Everyone misses her. She was good the whole day despite her having fever. Her fever went down after fish porridge and noon nap. Dad fetch us to dad's side granny's place for awhile and sent us home.

Oks. That's all.
Will do a proper update real soon oks.
No worrys, i won't neglect this blog of mine. =))

2010-07-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

Blogskins changed. Done all these by myself within an hour.
Blog header will be up soon. Stay tune.

2010-07-01T16:34:00.000+08:00

FUCK MY LIFE

FML FML FML !! I skipping work again today ! Slapss myself seriously.

Woke up with an eye swollen like goldfish. I hate my stupid sensitive eyes man! Hubby insisting on me getting a leave for a day rest for my eyes. Back to my comfortable bed and on the air-con to continue with my dreams. Hubby woke me up for my breakfast/lunch at 12pm. Ate and back to my lala land. Woke up at 4pm plus cus my phone keep singing non stop. Replied those msg and now slacking infront of this lappy. Boringggg.

Receives my pay. Lesser than i expected cause i took 2 days leave last week. Will be saving up those $$. Finally my back account is back to 4digits. I hope the amount will goes up and now down anymore.

Alright, that's all for today. Boring day at home. Hubby brought me my dinner just now and i guess i won't be heading anywhere lerhs. Gonna have enough rest and have to start work tmr. Cannot mc or take leave anymore. Arbo vincent sure ask me eat myself.
FUCK ! Upstairs just starting all those 'drillings and knockings' at bloody 4pm plus. According to the law, they're supposed to stop at 5pm oks. Let's see if they'll stop at 5pm. This is an old building and i don't understand why the works hasn't stop. It has been going on for months. Ever since i moved here. No peace at all man !! The sound comes every single day.

Alrights alrights, enough of ranting. I just hopes my eyes will stop swelling and some motivation for me to Gambateh on my work.

Happy 4 years anniversary hubby.
(without breakups)

2010-06-30T15:28:00.000+08:00

KILL ME PLEASE

ARGHS !! Somebody kill me please. I took half day today. Cause i'm super tired. No idea why but think it's due to the monthly cramps. Haiish. I don't understands why i can't stay in jobs for long. When i have a job on hand, i tend to take MC, half day and leave and always have the thinking to quit and stay home to rot. But when i'm jobless, i'll tend to look for jobs and tell myself to commit. I always complain when i have and when i doesn't have a job. Slaps myself !!!

Bus-ed to plaza when i knock off at 12pm. Met up with hubby and went over to buy my new nokia e72. OMG !! Finally it's on my hand. I'm luving it !!! Hahahas. Thanks hubby for this phone. He brought it for me when he receives his pay today. Loves u hubby. Mwarks Mwarks.

Went kopitiam to have our lunch as i'm freaking hungry and hubby sent me over to mummy's place. Have been rotting infront of this desktop since 2pm. Eyelids getting heavier. Guess i'm going for a nap later on.

Alright, i just hope i'll endure in this job. That's all. Byesss humans !!

2010-06-29T20:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY DAY

Am at mummy's place. Came here for dinner after work. Mummy called me back for dinner. Tomorrow also. Gaining weight. LOL.

Will be heading plaza with hubby later on. To buy some stuffs and check out the prices for iphone and nokia E72. Wondering which phone should i get? Changing phone on this sat latest. YEA ! Mad happy. Thanks hubby. Mwarkkss.

Alright, that's all. Gonna head over to plaza to meet up with hubby.

Ohh ya, i just helped my mum created a facebook account requested by her. She's using facebook like finally. LOL

2010-06-28T20:50:00.000+08:00

BLOG RETRIVED

Retriving my blog like finally. Rotting like nobody's business.
Well, still holding on to this job of mine located at bukit timah. Doing production. Great satisfaction when i receives my pay. All hard work are worth!

Attended Rayna & Wenhui's son's first month last night with hubby and biyun*god-daughter. Dad fetched us there. =) Stayed for less than an hour cause there's so many people there and i knew none. LOL. His son is urber cute. Passed her the ang bao and left after awhile. Went over to granny's place to let her play with biyun. Cabbed home at 9.45pm.

On mc today due to sore eyes on both my eyes. Sore eyes have been knocking on my door like everyday. Irritating. Pay coming in on thursday or friday. I'm waiting !!!

Slept till 4pm today and went over to 103 to do my teeth. YEPS ! ~~No more holes and foods won't stuck inside anymore.~~ Walked over to bangkit aftermath, went pasa malam for some snacks and brought our breakfast cum lunch cum dinner. Back home, ate, tv and now slacking. So decided to come blog. Will try to update every with a picture oks. Hahahss.
Alrights, gonna turn in at 10pm. Gonna work hard tmr. I hope i'll be able to survive for this few days due to big aunt came knocking at my door this afternoon when i woke up. ARGHS~

*ARIEL~GUANGYINMA*
U take care uh. Anything must give me a call or msg to let me know the verdict.

2010-05-08T01:38:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU

Helloss peoples. Back to blog after so long. Changed of blogskins. Love it ttm !! Changed by myself. No help needed from bro this time.*CLAPSSS

Will be starting work on wednesday. Working at bukit timah. Doing bullet. High pay. Together with hubby. Same company with xiao gu and gu gong and hui ru. Hahahss. Hope i stays in this job long. =X

Well, have been slacking my life away this few weeks. Mother's day is coming. Will be celebrating mum's side tmr and dad's side on sunday. Both days of nice foods = gain more weight. I wanna slim down. I hope by working will slims me down.

*Did my own manicure few days back.

Just ended mahjong session with ming hong, minghong's aunt and hui ru. Won $19.50. Great luck uhh. Played 20cents 40cents.

Alrights. That's all. Gonna go eat the mixed maggie mee cooked by hubby and turns in. Tired. Sayo humans.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL MOTHERS.
Including myself as a mother.
Baby girl, i hope u're doing fine up there.
Mummy will always remember you. Same goes to daddy.
We loves you. Mwarks.

2010-04-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

NEW BLOG SONGS

hELLoSss. KaiLing's back. Lazy to update this blog of mine. Hahhass.
Have been a big eater recently. Idk what reason also. Supper are my lovess now. Short update for today. Added new blog songs. Love them ttm !!!!!

`Hit town with Leslie kor and godma for godma's small operation, was indeed a fast one. Less than 15 mins and the doctor earned $3k plus. COOL uuhh~

`Have been going granny's place to keep godma accompanied recently.

Alrights. That's all. Gonna turn in soon incase my craving for supper comes again.
I think i gained super loads of weight. Don't dare to step on the weighing machine lorhhss.
KaiLing FATPIG. Better slim down !!!!
Gonna start jogging soon.

2010-04-19T14:19:00.000+08:00

I AM WHO I AM.

Well, kind of lazy to update my blog. I dislike weekdays. Cause it's super boring to be left alone at home. Hubby's not with me. Gonna wait patiently for the time for him to knock off then.

Aunts and friends tempts me to watch 红白喜事 and true enough, i liked that show !! Luckily xinmsn can watch the shows on demand. COOL~ Now i can watch mediacorp shows as and when i like. Don't need snatch tv with those idiots outside. =X

Okays, have been thinking should me and hubby move out and stay. Haven't really come to a decision. 2 ways for us to choose.
1. To move out and rent room for about half a year then buys our own 1 room flat.
2. To tahan in this hell place for another half a year then buys our own 1 room flat.
Which one should i choose? If i choose no 2, i can save up more and maybe i'll listens to mum and buys a 3 room flat. If i choose no 1, i definitely don't need to see that idiotic face. Well, i guess i'll think about it later. Not in a rush actually. Hahahas. I just wanna find a stable job with CPF asap and i can buys our own 1 room flat. I would choose 1 room flat cause it's easy to maintain. =D

Have been watching 宫心计. Nice show.
Oks. That's all.

Happy birthday to my sis and all april babiess. Hope sis likes the 2 big elmo from me and bro.

Lastly, i pray hard for god-ma. She's going for another operation on this thurs. It's a minor one this time and i hope everything will be fine. JIAYOUS GOD-MA. I'll be there for u always.

2010-04-12T07:50:00.000+08:00

A DREAM

Good morning peoples. Will do a fast updates on what happened in the previous days.

`Friday 9th April

-Met ShuXian*Buddy in the morning to bangkit shop&save to buy potatoes, carrots, conditioner and shower wash at 8am plus.

-Back home to cook porridge for Biyun*god-daughter

-8pm, over to feed her the porridge and waited for sis to arrive and back to my place

-Coaxed Biyun to sleep

-Fed her milk every 3hours and i didn't slept well.

`Saturday 10th April

-Woke up at 12pm plus.

-Cooked porridge for Biyun again.

-3pm, coaxed her for a nap and went to bath and prepare

-5pm, to bpp for some shopping

-7pm, dad fetched us to LiFang*cousin's place for her son BabyNicolas's first birthday.

-Saw jiaqi bor's friend there too and had a short chat

-9pm, send biyun and her stuffs home

-10pm, went timah to play pool with Hubby, Han Wei, Joanne*Darling & Bear Bear

-3am, cabbed back to Han Wei's place for mahjong session

-6am, back home to prepare and waited for dad to come fetch me and hubby to go bishan to 'Sao Mu'

`Sunday 11th April

-Back from 'Sao Mu' at 9am plus

-Bathed and off to bed

-Had 12 hours of sleep.

`Monday 12th April

Woke up at 5am, made breakfast for Hubby and myself. Ah ma's 'ba zhang'. Damn nice. Boring weekdays are here again. Gonna go bangkit and book bbq bit for this saturday to celebrate sissy and uncle's birthay. That's all.

Was that a dream or? It's a boy !!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-08T05:57:00.000+08:00

SHOULD I?

Should i get this LG Lollipop phone? Comments please.!! Might be getting this evening together with hubby and mother-in-law. In love with the pink one.

No worrys. I won't throw my precious sony phone aside. That's my love!!!!
I HATE COPYMEOWS !!

2010-04-07T05:53:00.000+08:00

I HATE PMS !!!!!!!!!

I hate PMS ttm !!! It's killing me. Stupid cramps ! Am earlier today. 5.56am now. Woke up at 3.30am due to heavy pms plus cramps and couldn't get back to sleep. Decided to on lappy and have been using till now. Chatted with Shiqi my pretty biao mei till 5am and she went to sleep.(You must attend the party on sat ahhh.)

Went bpp to have dinner with hubby at pizza hut yesterday and spend about $150 there. GOSH! Brought some blings to beautify my phone again and i'm loving my phone more and more. Hahahss.

This is my pretty pretty old sony phone.

In Love.

Went M1 and saw LG Lollipop phone. Soooo pretty.

Should i get that phone?

*No copymeows pls*

This is my injured toe. My whole nail dropped out !!

Pain + Gross ttm !!!

Oks. That's all.

My mac deluxe meal has arrived. Hungry~

2010-04-06T07:58:00.000+08:00

Phew!

Time Check : 7.58am. I'm so early today. Have been sleeping at 10pm and wakes up at 5am for 2 days already. Healthy or wad? LOL.

Have been leading a boring life as usual. Haven't really made up my mind when to really find a stable job. Still slacking away. Lucky hubby's working. If not? Die! Hahahss. Finally come red!!(Gynae's medication works) And stupid cramps follow. =.=!

Finish watching 21 episodes of ‘下一站，幸福’ and 20 episodes of ‘孩有明天2’ within 3 days. Hubby calls me drama queen. Cause he always says i can chiong like there's no tomorrow. Hahahss. Gonna go return ‘金石良缘 & 老婆大人2’ and rent some other drama back to watch again.

Boring !! Just reformatted my phone. Transfered pictures, themes & songs into my phone. Thanks to Joanne`Darling for the cable. And i love my phone now ttm!!! Hmmm, should i get iphone 3gs or waiting for 4g or get some other phone?

Biyun god-daughter is mad adorable.

Love her ttm!!

I'm glad she's getting more sociable to others and she's really growing.

Time flies.

It seems that when i wanna quit smoking, i tend to smoke more. Haiish. What's wrong with myself? There's no motivation at all.

2010-03-31T01:34:00.000+08:00

ADDICTED.

Sorry for not blogging for so long.

So lazy plus erm busy yea? Finally i'm done on confinement !! But still can't really eat alot of outside food. Back to hubby's place. Not staying at granny's anymore.

Well, that's all for today. Have been going over to see biyun god-daughter recently. She has grown so so much. And she's getting more and more adorable as days passes by. Well, i guess that's the only thing that cheers me up. Recovering well.

No new pics till i transfer to my lappy. Alright, that's all. Gonna turn in soon with hubby. Nights peoples.

*Hubby, thanks for pampering me so much during ur birthday. It's ur birthday and u did so much things for me and made me felt guilty for not buying anything for u cause nothing caughts ur eyes.
I love the dress u brought for me.
I love the 2 tops u brought for me.
I love those bangles u brought for me.
I love my hair colour ttm and thanks so much for paying.
I LOVE U HUBBY. Mwarkksss

I wanted to quit smoking so much. But after every meal, i'll feel like lighting up a stick. And everytime after a packet finishes, i'll tend to buy another packet and it goes on. I really wants to quit smoking. But, it's so so so difficult.

2010-03-22T18:22:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't know who read my plurk or my blog and told my mum that i took back smoking. HEYS, it's my problem. Can't u guys mind ur own business. What benifits do u gain after u tell my mum? That'll only led to ME, quarreling with her. SHE, threatening me with my dad. WHAT'S THIS MAN !!!!

I don't need comments and neither do i need this kind of people interfering my lifes. GET A LIFE MAN !! What's so bad about smoking? It's not like i've killed someone or put a tatoo that'll be on my body forever.

I guess i'm changing bloglink or putting my blog on private soon.
TO PREVENT K-POS FROM READING MY BLOG AND GOING AROUND SHOOTING STUFFS THAT'LL LED TO QUARRELS FROM MY FAMILY.

LEAVE ME ALONE
Get lost people. AND SHUT THE HELL UP. !

SO WHAT IF I'M A SMOKER? DOES IT CONCERNS U?

2010-03-18T14:20:00.000+08:00

Backaches

Sorry peoples for not blogging for 3 days. Was lazy. =.=!! Nothing much to update also. Cause my life are all the same everyday.

Have been going back to hubby's place everynight cause granny's brother is staying over at granny's. Hubby's place is still the best. Back to granny's during 12plus and had lunch and then slack and then dinner and then back to hubby's. Boring life.

Granny allowed me to bath, Like finally!! Washed my oily hair and body with the herbal water she brewed. Feel so fresh. Will be staying at hubby's place from friday night till monday noon. Not going back to mum's side as she'll be busy during sat and sun.

Yea ! 7 more days to end my confinement. And i can dye black my hair. 8 more days to go kkh to take my report and i hopes my gynae gives me good news. That's all. Byes peoples. Take care.

2010-03-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

Great Weekend.

It's monday again people. That means, i'm back to granny's. Spend my weekends with hubby. Was a great one.

Back to granny's at 12plus this afternoon. Bused back and had milo and biscuit as light lunch. Had full dinner and watched '金石良缘' throughout. Finishing 20 episodes. Gonna watch '老婆大人' next.

Alrights. That's all for today. 10 more days of confinement.

2010-03-12T13:57:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY

It's friday today. That means, i'm going back to my mum's place tonight. Will ask dad come fetch me home tonight.

Went back to hubby's house last night cause i miss sleeping in air-con room plus my bed. Went back at 9pm and doze off straight away after changing to my phyjamas while hubby's bathing. Slept all the way till 11.30am and made breakfast for both hubby and i. Hubby's on leave today as he gonna go back selatar camp to pay his IPPT fees. Cabbed over to granny's place at 12pm.

Just finished my lunch. Granny cooked bee hun soup with 2 eggs !! Damn bloated. Waiting for hubby to be back and i guess i'm gonna doze off again. Feeling tired plus the cramp in my stomach isn't getting any better. Am i recovering?

就这样了。Byes.

2010-03-11T11:48:00.000+08:00

14 MORE DAYS

Who0oHo0os !! 14 more days to end my confinement. HAPPY !!

Woke up late today. Was super tired. Had half boiled eggs for breakfast by granny again. Ate and now slacking on this lappy.

Finished watching 20 episodes of 'Priceless wonders'. I wonder what show will be up next. Had a tiff with hubby last night due to some stupid stuffs. I guess we're alright now. No more cold wars. People always says : 床头吵，床尾和。

Oh ya, granny strike first price last night. Lucky lucky her. =))

That's all for today. Gonna go watch episode 7 of 'The illusionist'.

Take care people. Byes.

2010-03-10T07:14:00.000+08:00

RAINY DAYS

Morning peeposss. Woke up at 5am plus as usual due to granny's alarm. Nice weather to sleep but i'm so awake already. Had half boiled egg for breakfast by granny as i requested. YUMMY !!

IM.SO.THE.BORING.LARHHSS

Nothing for me to do. Hubby came at 8pm plus last night, later than before cause he worked overtime. That means, more earnings !! Was cleaning myself up when he came, accompany him for dinner and fall asleep. Both hubby and i was super tired that we both fall asleep on the sofa in less than 5 mins. Shared a stick with hubby and he left. Came in and slept all the way till 5am plus this morning.

Gonna stuck at this lappy till night time and sleeps at 10plus again tonight. Boring life i have.

Can someone bring me out for shopping?

Can someone bring me out for some exercise?

Can someone intro me a job to work at home?

Can someone tells me what to do?

ShuXian buddy came to visit me yesterday together with biyun god-daughter. OMG !!! She's so cute. She keeps sticking her tongue out when i asked for kiss.

Alrights, that's all for today's post. Nothing much. Wonder what's granny cooking for lunch today? Smells nice. Be back at night or tomorrow morning. Take care humans.

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LASTLY, i wanna go watch movie !!!!!!!!

2010-03-09T10:09:00.000+08:00

A fresh start.
Past post are saved as drafts.

Okay, my mind's so blank now. Gonna take some time to think of what to type for this post. Something's pulling me back from posting about my abortion. But to prevent people from asking about my things and stuffs. Read my blog kays?

Right, did an abortion on the 6th march after much consideration. Decided to let this little precious out because she's without kidney. Nobody know why this happens. Waiting for the report to be out and i guess i'll know why on the 26th march which is hubbys birthday. Will go collect with hubby. =)

I gave birth to my little precious because she's 22th weeks and the doctor says it's dangerous to suck out. Was admitted on the 5th march. Doctors starts to insert pills into my vagina every 4 hours in order to let my cervix open so that i can let her out. Normally for first time abortion, i'll have to take 2 course which is 10 pills. But after my 4th pill on 6th march morning 7am plus, the doctor checked me and says i can give birth as my cervix is big enough to let her out. So at 8am they ask me to start pushing at my ward/bed. The pain was so unbearable. Took loads of pain killers and injection. Finally, decided to do a big push with the help of hubby's hand. Did a urber big/hard bite on his hand and pushed out little precious. Little precious came out and all of my pain went off. Was so relived! Rested and waited for the nurse to clean me up.

The nurse re-confirmed with me if i wanna see little precious, i said no. And my heart hurts so much. Hubby rejected seeing little precious toos. But i know he did somehow saw abit. Was told that i'm able to discharge at 5.30pm. Was super happy! Mum came down at 1pm plus. Cooked me confinement food, no appetite but did ate abit. Rested and the doctor came to tell me my body was very strong. She said my body takes in medicine fast and reacts fast. And she told me my little precious is very beautiful. Hold back my tears and thank god. It wasn't easy to accept and did all these.

I'll always remember i gave birth to this precious and i'll always mark 6th march on my celendar. I don't blame god for taking her away, i know it's all fated. I know god will take good care of her and she'll be good. Although i do misses her at times, i know she'll always be in my heart.

Doing confinement now at granny's house. ~~No snacks, maggie mee, ice water, alcohol, bath~~ and outing for me for 1 month!! Under the care of granny and my mum, i'm sure i'll recover fast. I'll just have to bear with the hot-ness and the no junk food life. It's a good chance to slim down yea? Lost 7kg after abortion. I wanna slim down and plan for another baby soon.

Hubby have been bugging me for another baby. He says he wants us to have another baby by july. Is it too fast? To me is fine, we're able to raise the baby and i really do love kids loads. I hope god hears my prays and give me another cute and heathy child.

*Hubby, i'm sorry, i broke down again. I promise to be strong. Let's work hard against ur goal. I'm sure we'll be able to make it. For the sake of our future and ur 30th birthday wish. Let's jiayou !!!! I love you loads. Although i won't be able to sleep beside u now everyday, but seeing u come see me after work everydays contents me.